We were due for our cleaners to come over, and it was anxiety time for me as having been out of house for two weekends in a row, the house was a mess – which meant it needed some serious work before I could even let anyone else start cleaning. I started attacking all the corners – from stacking up office papers to folding laundered clothes to emptying kitchen sink, and it felt like a punishment! Even though I was highly annoyed at having to tidy up the place, it was worth the hrs of effort. Finally when the cleaners came and left – the place looked so much more livable. My mind felt clutter free and from that moment onwards I was extra aware /conscious about put things back in their place after using them. It’s a nice, light/airy feeling to have a clean organized home. What’s frustrating it that every time our house is back to normalcy, things start trickling out of their place slowly, and eventually there is a breakdown. It’s like I just have a higher tolerance for mess around me.
As far as I can remember, I have never been even close to being neat and organized. There have been serious attempts to take incremental steps towards becoming organized. My mother spent a large part of her life trying to get me to keep things back in their place and a sense of orderliness at home, but her constant pleadings to exasperated requests fell to deaf years. During my late teens, she almost gave up on me and assigned the weekly task to the girl who came to cleanup, and when that didn’t happen, she did not bother stepping into my room. So some of that habit has spilled over into my adult life.
I am tired of dealing with this on a consistent basis! Why is that some people are such freaks when it come to orderliness whereas there are others who live blissfully, some even thrive, amongst chaos and disorderliness? And why is that even after I swear to keep things in place, something more important comes up. Is it because I have too much stuff? Or am I just too lazy? Or a combination? Or being organized and super neat is just a cultivated habit that develops as a child and that’s it, and the rest of us are doomed. Or perhaps I should stop complaining and spend the energy in doing some cleaning 
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